completely giving up, dying alone, rejecting love but not for hate, celibacy, abandoning god, god abandoning you, your idols hating you, poison, love leaving you behind, only knowing hate but not hating others, self sabotage, vomit gore in slow motion, dsbm for angels, clouds of weed smoke in the palest blue sky, not knowing when to stop, knowing you went too far, knowing you cared too much, no one else caring enough, a tiny note at the bottom of a dime bag that reads "i hate you"